My official first blog :)
the purpose of this weekly blog is basically for 2 things: one is to help me heal and act as some sort of self therapy and the second purpose is to hopefully inspire others and let them know they're not alone. So here we go.....
I've been overweight all of my life (since I was 3). My heaviest weight was 245 lbs back in 2005. I always knew I needed to lose weight. I've made many MANY attempts to lose the weight but I knew my weight loss journey was going to take time (at least a year). And for me I wanted to just wake up one morning and I'll be at my goal weight INSTANTLY. Yeah I know its not realistic but a girl can dream can't she?!?
Trust me I've done everything and I mean EVERYTHING. And I've failed many times, and each time I failed I lost a little bit of hope each time. It came to a point where I was running on empty in the hope department.
I knew it was going to take a lot out of me (time, patience, faith, determination, and strength) all of which I didn't think I had. And when it was one of those days that I felt I would have to "accept" that I am just going to be the "Fat girl" for the rest of my life and be ok with it, I would pray for a miracle to happen which would eventually lead to crying myself to sleep......aaawww....I'm starting to tear up right now :( this is hard remembering and going back to that point in my life. But I have to write about this, I think its the only way for me to acknowledge it and leave it behind me once and for all. If not its going to build up inside of me and I don't want that to happen. I need to deal with my past head on.
More to come on this.......
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